So when you break my heart...

I’m back and I survived. We left Friday around 1 and got back today around noon. It wasn’t all to bad. My dad did notice that I got my tongue pierced on the way, but he didn’t say anything about it to me. Just to my mom and my sister. All well, he’ll get over it… I find it funny that it took a year for him to notice it.

Well the trip, we got there and I met my grandparents cat, Sherman. It is insane how they worry about that cat. If they call it and it doesn’t comeback they go searching the woods for it. it’s a damn cat, its supposed to wander around. And when its in the house all my grandma does is worry if he’s hungry. “’Boo Boo, you want to eat. You hungry, Boo Boo?” Lord, if the cat is hungry he will eat! Well Saturday my sister and I went to the Mall. And I bought a tres cute. And some other clothes. I did see Chris, the ex. But I don’t think he saw me. He was working in Abercrombie and Fitch. My sister was done shopping in there just as I saw him so I turned and walked out before he saw me. I didn’t say anything to my sis, she would have wanted to go back in there and see him probably. Then on today we left pretty early. So I guess it was an OK trip.

Well, I thought I was going to end up spending my day up to my elbow in dog placenta. Thankfully not. But my boss is spending all night in. Willow went in to labor at about 4. Right when I was getting off work. She’ll be in labor for most of if not the whole night. We were taking bets on how many she would have… we’ll see who is closest tomorrow.

Me: 9

Linda (boss): 8

Leigh (bosses husband, yes he spells his name the girl way): 6

Linda (bosses neighbor) : 11

I measured her belly yesterday, it was 39 inches around it, I’m guessing after she has the pups it’ll be about 24 inches around.

Well this will be my last update till Sunday. I leave for Beaumont around noon tomorrow. Everyone wish me luck and hope I survive. And if any of you really really love me and want to tell me hello while I’m on my trip you can call me, and it will be greatly appreciated. It will make me feel very loved.

Until we meet again - Travis

Cell - (979) 203-3119

I cant believe Daniel F. got kicked off project runway. It should have totally been Santino. I’ve never liked his work and he was pansy this week. Errr.

So this week end I’m going to Beaumont to visit my dad’s parents. This will be a load of fun. (sarcasm). They are the most boring people I’ve ever met. They just sit on the couch and watch TV. All day. Oh they let the cat out to potty and stuff. And when the cat is outside no one is allowed outside cause they might scare the cat and it might run away.

Another reason I don’t want to go is Chris. He lives in Orange. Which is like 15 mins away from Beaumont. I finally got over him and I know he works in Beaumont at the mall, which I will probably go to. I just hope to God I don’t run in to him.

“Well hes a friend and hes so proud of ya, well hes a friend and I knew him before ya, oh yeah.

Well hes a friend and were so proud of ya, your famous friend, well I blew him before ya oh yeah.”

“Do You Want To” - Franz Ferdinand

How homoerotic if I do say so myself. Not as homoerotic as their song “Michael”. I heart the “Do You Want To” video. And Alex Kapranos is sooo damn hott.

“This is where ill be so heavenly so come and dance with me Michael. So sexy I’m sexy so come and dance with me Michael. I’m all that you you wanna see so come and dance with me Michael. So close now, so close now, so come and dance with me come dance with me. Michael you’re the the boy with all the leather hips sticky hands sticky hips only on your sticky lips. Michael you’re the only one I’d ever want, only one I’d ever want only one I’d ever want. Beautiful boys on a beautiful dance floor, Michael your dancing like a beautiful dance whore. Michael waiting on a silver plater now, nothing matters now. This is what I am, I am a man so come and dance with me Michael. So strong now, its strong now. So come and dance with me Michael.”

“Michael” - Franz Ferdinand

Travis the lumber Jill. I was going to say lumber Jack, but who are we kidding? Anywho, I played with the chainsaw today, and hurt myself (of course). I was cutting a limb and it flew and hit me in the legs. It hurt and I said something to the extent of “mother f**ker! God D**n it. Geeze! F**k me in the a**!” and the neighbors happened to be outside. After the profanities I noticed they headed inside pretty quickly. All well.

I feel like getting Fuzzy tonight. Oh Christmas eve my mom drank a bottle of boons farm in 15 mins, passed out then woke up to puke… it was too funny. Silly mothers who can hold their liquor.

I have absolutely no self control. I have gained so much weight lately. I just eat and eat. It’s so horrible. I have to wear a size medium shirt now. I actually cried last night when I stepped on the scale. 173! Yes, 173 lbs. I haven’t been this big in years. It’s so horrible.

Geeze, I was just watching people find out they were going to be grandparents and I started crying. I’m never going to tell my parents that. And I want a baby so bad. I know I can’t have one now, I can hardly take care of myself. But one day I would like to have a baby. I would adopt of course. I would give my love to a baby whose real parents didn’t want to love it or couldn’t love it for some other reason.

And I ended up crying earlier also watching happy couples on TV. When am I going to be a happy couple. Why can’t I find a good guy? Why can’t I be happy?

“The greatest feeling you’ll ever know is to love and be loved in return” maybe one day.

The Holidays are over… well except the new year, but that’s not very stressful. At least not like Christmas is. I hope everyone got what they wanted.

Phone conversation today (the caller id was blocked)

(cell phone rings- plays kiss me by sixpence none the richer)

Me: Hello?

Stranger: Who is this?

M: Travis. Who is this?

S: That’s not important.

M: Really? I think it is.

S: Well your wrong, good bye.

(hangs up)

It was a bit strange. All well.

Senator Stevens of Alaska is a low down dirty piece of shit. He attached the ANWR bill to a Military defense bill. The ANWR bill has to do with drilling for oil in Alaska’s National Parks. IIts bull, you can’t attach that to the military defense bill. Its just wrong, and hes only doing it cause he knows that the only way ANWR will be passed… eerrrr…